No Accessories Required
In a crowded room, he said,
he fantasized and had a lovely time doing it.
swash buckling tall,
long strayed hair with darkening eyes to prove it
or they loved it or she/he loved it,
when he says he did it to them all;
he implied he played a priest
or maybe it was a late night hotel bellman.
Try as I may,
"I can 't remember everything you know!"
I said, 'I don't do that when alone together,'
fantasies, i mean
but I think he thought I meant,
I don't do that..........
the big that,
that that that everyone means when they say that
which is a much larger issue than,
"I don't do that"
and I don't...fantasize, I mean.....
not here anyway, not now.... but.
I did tell him, I don't do fantasy,
I think he heard me.
he sat back in his chair musing
through his repretoire of characters,
remembering his fantasies
as if they had taken place this evening.
he smiled inside himself, again,
another time, our eyes were not meeting
another fantasy? not with me this time,
only his rememberings
He said that fantasies were fun.
they could enhance a situation
becoming a fore-text for fore-play,
my words sorry.
taking on a persona to please another
and thrill the room.
he could thrill the room
by just walking in the door, but
but, what do I know, he likes fantasy,
and I don't do that. I told him.
What I wanted to say is,
I don't need fantasy to do that.
I know now, I should have grabbed him by the collar
and pulled him close
and felt his heartbeat
and heard his breath warm my face,
whispering for everyone else to hear,
"I don't need fantasy
When you are with me, baby, we are enough.
No accessories required."
Merlin , June 9, 1995
[This message was edited by daddy on 02-15-02 at 11:45 AM.]